I've been struggling to write about stuff for quite some time now. And I've been practicing with my graphic tablet. Hopefully, I could do more in the future.
I'm 16 days from the end of the semester and I'm not that enthusiastic. My mind is a mess that I can't even tell how I'm feeling towards this. Then again, I don't want this to just pass me by with a big frown on my face. And I'm glad that I still have a reason to smile. I remember my first day in U.P.. How it felt when I was asked to commute from pampanga to my then residence somewhere in U.P. Village on a Sunday afternoon(which was my first commute to manila alone). How my first meal was a hot dog sandwich from ministop and a bottle of water. How I waited for my first class which was ES1 with a classmate who was busy reading the bible. How excited I was to go home that tuesday since I had no class till wednesday afternoon. How I waited for my math class that wednesday since I misread the schedule on my form.(note that during those times, wednesday was the freeday) How I had my first cut where I played DotA at a nearby computer shop instead of attending my ever
> Ma'am, magpapasa lang po ng appeal. - Hah, bat ngayon lang? Di na kami tumatanggap ng appeal e. Sabi ni Doc. P wala na daw tatanggaping appeal. > Ganun po ba? Di na po ba talaga pwede? - Nasakanya na lahat e, di na raw siya tatanggap. Teka, nandyan siya, hintayin mo, sakanya ka makiusap. + What do you need? > Sir, I'll just pass my letter of Appeal. I've been dism... + Sorry, I can't help you there. You had enough time to pass that appeal. You don't even know how to sign your name! > Sir, please give me one more chance. I waited for the line at the admin office that's why I wasn't able to pass it earlier. + OK, I'll give you a chance to defend your case. .... + Hurry up, I don't have all time! > I'm sorry sir, here's my situation. I was dismissed....blah blah. + You're lucky to have gone this far. Your grades are barely satisfactory. Swerte ka ngayon ka palang nadidismiss. Can you tell me why you failed these? > Sir
My dreams have been missing you and the last time you visited was a bad memory left on my mind. Still, I want to meet you there, my dream girl. Sandman be my wish maker..... oOo It's a realization I don't want to make sense out of. I've been in college for 6 years and it seems the direction I'm heading to is as clear as murky water. Yes it's true I want to be that engineer. But it seems, as time passes by that I'm not clearly affiliated to any institution, the passion I had for that is slowly fading. And I'm getting back to that time when I was in that catholic institution trying to pretend I want to be something that I really didn't. I'm not saying I really don't want to be an engineer. I'd want to be one but at this moment, I'm feeling a bit confused; partly because I'm not confident that I'd be accepted to that, my fourth university, and partly because I'm not confident that I can meet expectations. I really haven't met
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