Blueprints on Worksheets

My dreams have been missing you and the last time you visited was a bad memory left on my mind. Still, I want to meet you there, my dream girl. Sandman be my wish maker..... oOo It's a realization I don't want to make sense out of. I've been in college for 6 years and it seems the direction I'm heading to is as clear as murky water. Yes it's true I want to be that engineer. But it seems, as time passes by that I'm not clearly affiliated to any institution, the passion I had for that is slowly fading. And I'm getting back to that time when I was in that catholic institution trying to pretend I want to be something that I really didn't. I'm not saying I really don't want to be an engineer. I'd want to be one but at this moment, I'm feeling a bit confused; partly because I'm not confident that I'd be accepted to that, my fourth university, and partly because I'm not confident that I can meet expectations. I really haven't met...

I guess the right time comes moments before it's over....

Let me reminisce one more time. 5 years ago, I wasn't expecting to be able to transfer to that Diliman Campus. It was March, if I'm not mistaken. I've already applied for an honorable dismissal from my previous university even though I had nowhere to go yet. Getting an honorable dismissal means that you don't have any plans of returning to that university and that you're pulling out all the records that you may have there; therefore, if in case the universities which I applied for won't admit me, I won't be able to re-enroll on my previous school. That made me desperate. I only asked for two copies of my transcript so I could only apply for 2 universities; which I thought was a big mistake. So I only chose 2 campuses(campi?): diliman and los banos. I was feeling lucky that I could easily get admitted to the latter. I actually passed the entrance exam for that campus though I turned it down since, during those days, my mind was as cluttered as a friend/dotama...

Let the 17 hours pass I'll be content

It was the first activity after orientation. You were in red. Those days, you were still crazy about wearing polo. And that day, or night, as it was called the unity night, despite it being a physical activity, you still wore that red, uncomfortable polo. Back then you already had a set of acquaintances, or friends if you may. Excluding your 3-year-dorm-mate-2-months-roommate, you had 4: a guy with round cheeks, a tall guy with glasses, a pudgy girl, and a thin girl with long hair and muscular arms. At that time, you thought twice about attending the event but the two girls asked you to do so. And so you did. The venue was at a roof top of some old building with tiles that reminded you of your dorm, a year back. You entered the long and relatively narrow room as people beamed at you and you searched for those 4 familiar faces. Then you heard someone call out "papa bear!" Back then, maybe as a joke, the 2 girls called you papa bear. They can't call you by your cool name si...

6 days ago, as I was about to bid goodbye to my mom before going to school, she whispered something to me. Well, a few minutes before that, she was ranting about how I got mixed up in the situation I'm in. I just ignored her. Then, as I was about to leave, she told me that she wanted to punch me. A few weeks prior to that, I was asking for permission from my dad to attend an org event at a mall in clark when I was bugged a few questions regarding the event. Then these lines came up: "Bakit ka pa pupunta diyan? Kalimutan mo na yan..." About 5 or 6 hours ago, we passed by this school along the road. A tarpaulin hung loosely on its fence congratulating some students for winning on a certain competition. My sister tried to read what was written but wasn't able to read what the event was. I told my sister what it was all about. Then my father spoke "next year wala ka nang alam tungkol diyan" At dinner last night, my younger brother was showing his graduation pic...

You do something to me, that I can’t explain… (I Miss You, Incubus ) As long as we got time, this aint goodbye… (This Aint Goodbye, Train ) Close our eyes, pretend to fly… (Penny And Me, Hanson) Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there… (Drive, Incubus) Just kind of stuck between my fantasy and what is real… (Because of You, Neyo ) Jealousy turning saints into the sea… (Mr. Brightside, The Killers ) Cause I was so high… (Solo, Iyaz ) I’m standing here until you make me move… (Hanging By A Moment, Lifehouse ) Cause without love I won’t survive… (Love Hurts, Incubus ) You know I need you and there’s no way I am leaving… (Sweet Thing, Keith Urban ) If it takes the rest of my life… (Wait For You, Elliot Yamin ) Here I go, screaming my lungs out and trying to get to you… (Only One, Yellow Card ) A dreamer dreams, (s)he never dies… (Champagne Supernova, Oasis ) I’ll be the one to tuck you in at night… (Follow Me, Uncle Cracker ) I saw the world flashing all around your face… (I Melt With You,...