Delusionary Nostalgia
I stood frozen after looking left and right and seeing who I was with on stage. I stared at the people down and realized what was happening. It was supposedly a photo opp for the resident members of an organization I'm now an alumnus of and there I was feeling like a resident again rushing to get a picture after everyone else had. Then again, the cameras started to flash so I just posed and dealt with the moment quickly. I nonchalantly went down the stage and started being defensive. "I worked for this, I deserve one picture. Hahahaha" It bothers me now why or how, back then, I suddenly felt torn. Was it OK to be too involved or should I have been a bit detached? Maybe I'm just over-thinking.