I miss her. I want to see her. There are things not meant to happen soon. I'm hopeful. Inconsolable pain is agony. Watching my 6 year old nephew trying to fight his tears, seeing his anguished face over the death of his father shot by still unknown gunmen, I can't stop my tears from forming. My life's a mix up. Just this weekend, I was having a trouble free, fun vacation. Days after, I'm in mourning. What should I feel? I have 2 days from my entrance exam. I still have a lot to prepare. Time is running. I feel awful at the 2 game loss of the Celtics against my much hated team. 4 games to go.